Sometimes, reality hits u pretty hard and nth in the world seemed to be in place. Nth. Its like when u look at the shadow of ur thigh. So slim, straight and nice. And when u look back into the mirror the next minute, gosh, you wish u never owned a mirror.

I do not have any idea how had it begin. Neither do I know when had it begin. It must have secretly crept into me. Its so insignificant, so much so that I can only feel it when I am alone, staring in the faraway distant, deep in my thoughts.

*sigh

I missed going to school already.

Five years ago, I hated the campus. I resented having to drag myself up when the skies are still dark. I dislike homeworks. I hated it when my friends laughed at that damned fringe when I was still a nerd. I loathed miss chua for catching that damned fringe every single morning when she had no one to pick on.

But now, given a chance, I would like to go through them all once again.(maybe minus that damned fringe)

Just imagine the little things I would missed when I leave. I would never have a class of 39 people and weaved all that memories again. I missed very single one of them.

That Chinaman talking about nth but dirty jokes during recess. Danny still wants to transform into power ranger at the age of 17. Zi gao who talks about nth but Maple all day long.

Brandon and Yeebin who never fails to make any teacher fall in LOVE with our class. Andrew who always pronounce 'size' as 'science'. KayChoon with his ever high height and results. Kelvin who always failed to grow up. Peishan who slaps pple as frequent as she ate her meals. Ivan, that pro in biology but was named sotong. Yixian, that fa-ge, famous for selling wok.

Never, can I ever find another form teacher who tells her student to 'Eat shit and die' for the gazillion time during her accounts lessons.

I missed them. Oh, how I miss them.

I want to take them all with me. Pack them in a little suitcase and take 'em all home. Thats the bad thing abt holding something dear to my heart. Because losing them feels like u as though u have lost all ur limbs. The pain is not instant, but it lingers.

*sigh.