I was pathetically sick this few days.

I almost coughed out my liver.

Last night, last last night and last last last night, I coughed myself to sleep.

How wonderful life can be.

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Yesterday, I was talking to a friend online.

She just broke up with her guy a few days ago.

She was totally shattered.

I was shocked as well. They are together for 5 years. They are the happiest couple I have ever seen.

You see, the thing is, I am a very negative person. Too much things have happened to made me realised that there are no forever after all. True love? They are for fools.

I know I should not stereotype. I know it is not a fair judgment. I know; I realised. But I couldnt help it. Too much have happened. It was more than enough to dissuade me from being objective so that I would not be exposed to hurt again.

But when I look at that couple every time, they made me realised that true love was not foolish. They made me feel that, maybe it does exist after. And that whatever unpleasant things that are going to happen, is worthwhile, just for the person you loved. Even if it means being a fool for life.

They were the last faith I have for love in this pathetic world.

And they just broke.

She used to complain that he did not make enough time for her, for them.

She often say that there wasnt enough memories of them being together.

Little did she realise that memories was her fatal blow.

Now, everywhere she went, every song she heard, every thing she ate, there were memories of them.

Whenever memories came to visit, she said it feel like a knife cutting her. The pain within was worst than cutting her wrist.

She was my 5th friend who had their wrist cut because of love.

Look at this and try telling me I Love You.

People of the ancient fought and died for love. This was because they had no chance, no freedom.

Today, there were no kings who forced woman to become his concubines, no rich ladies forced to married to someone they do not love, no blind dates and no blind marriages.

People of today had the chance, had the freedom. They thought it was unnecessary to fight for and hence did not learn to cherish.

I always say the world is fair. It is either this or that. When did God ever bestow you two wonderful gifts at the same time?