how do you feel when you are so not appreciated?

I dont know about you guys but I feel wrecked.

I see my past laughing at me, giving them up for nothing.

do they seriously think that I gave up piano only at grade 7 just because I am willful? Just because I wanted to show them how rebeilious I am?

fuck.

i gave up 7 years of hardwork and all the sacrificed medicure sessions just because I am rebellious.

haha. laugh with me people. just laugh with me.

mark says I should show them everything.

my grades. my thoughts. myself.

but whats the point?

they dont trust me at all. they dont love me at all.