Screw them for adding salt to wounds.

I shouldnt have g0t so carried away when I got A for 3 modules during the second week.

Thanks. Thanks a whole lot Mr. Kelvin.

" Try to put yourself in their shoes. Everyone have a fair chance to make themselves loveable and likeable to others. But some facilitators sacrificed their chance by making our life difficult just because they want us to learn."

This was what I told one of my friends when he was screw-ing his facilitator last week.

To the hell with the sacrifices now.

Yes, I realised that I am being so not rational and understanding now.

I am a very mood influenced person. I cant help it if I am made that way.

I enjoy being influenced by my mood. I hate altering them to suit circumtstances. And so I confidenly thought that no any other things would change this priniciple.

And well, the grades just did.

I expected my grades to be bad when I was talking to him last night. But I thought I could be as nochalant as before.

But I could not. The disappointment was more than what I have expected and could take, when I saw the big C this morning.

So much so I was a bit teary after remembering vaguely the troubles I went through to finish the RJ and the amount of effort I put for that day.

hungsiewkee you are so dumb and silly. I despise you for being so over confident. I despise you even more for being such a cry baby.

I screamed at my brother for buying me my favourite food. I just banged at my piano. I just tore a few pages from my microbiology books. I just threw away my brother's tutorial notes. I kicked all my soft toys to the floor. I screamed at the grang guni man for wanting to buy my old newspapers. There is always someone walking by when I feel like screaming. The last time was a ice-cream man, now this. How unfortunate for them.

I so want to sit on the floor and kick and scream and wail like a spolit brat.

Yes, I want to be so spoilt at this very moment to appease just to appease myself.

I hate everyone for making my day so miserable.

I hate myself too, for very well I know, at the very next moment I will forgive everyone and forget about everything. I am just so mood influenced.

I am so pathetic. I cant even hate for long.

You are laughing at me, arent you?