caffine is exciting my cells again. I just couldnt get to sleep.

dont ask me how i g0t coffee again. i just got it.

sometimes, i just cant help but to wonder how can people be so decisive in life?

there are too many decisions to be made, to many mistakes to risk, too many hearts to break.

i am not exactly old enough to give advices like 70 year old grannies.

but i sure experienced enough, in fact, more than enough, to understand that no one can be damn sure about anything in this damned world.

no one can.

how can anyone be when the world is ever changing, ever spinning?

i was once damn sure that we were best friend but still in the end, she end up with the guy that i had crush for 3 whole years.

i was once damn sure that this jerk wouldnt dump me, at least not on my birthday, but still, he left that day.

the only solace offered was that the girl he left me for was uglier, so much uglier.

fuck.

Look at all the uncertain souls around.

Yet, this girl here, unfazed by every possible heartbreaks and disappointment, told me she knew what she want. Never will she succumb to any possible temptation. Neither will she compromise her principle for anyone.

In her eyes, I somewhat saw my past. I saw the same passion I had for life a few years back. I saw the old innocent me, vulnerable to all possible hurt that others could have inflicted.

I wanted to warn but she was too headstrong to listen.

Who wouldnt be?

If someone were to warn years back, I wouldnt have listened as well. I wanted my fair share of falling and hurting, before I learn.

Be brave my friend, for life is full of surprises.

Surprises are meant to be pleasant. Unfortunately, no one has really bothered enough to comprehend that principle yet.